So my Florida vacation with Erica was an absolute blast! Oh my gosh I had so much fun. I seriously think that's one of the best vacations I've been on. I was completely relaxed the entire time. I was in the pool everyday and I even swam in the ocean. At Panama City Beach, the water is piss yellow so I hardly ever get in but in Destin it is crystal blue and beautiful! The water us also a lot warmer in the summer. Oh and on Saturday I made friends with a fish. He was a black and white striped anchovy and he kept following me around in the water, it was so cute! He even followed me up to shore until it wasn't deep enough for him. On Thursday we all went go-kart racing which was fun but I had a shitty slow one. Tori was laughing at me cuz I was getting pissed off while I was driving, lol. On Friday we went out on the bay in a pontoon and rode on jet skies. That was sooooo much fun but I rode with Erica so I was hanging on for dear life. I almost fell off a couple times and the next day my legs were really sore but it was still fun. Everynight Erica and some of the guys played cornhole which I just enjoyed watching. We ended up meeting some guys (Erica's idea) but we only hung out with them one night. Overall the trip to Florida awesome and I really hope I can go on another vacation with her some day.

Unfortunately my joy didn't last for long. I was very emotional yesterday when we left and some things that happened in the morning didn't help. First of all we almost got T-boned by a huge SUV that ran a red light. We were saved because Erica's grandpa was fooling with some money so he didn't go right away. For some reason that shook me up, but then we drove past a wreck about an hour later. Two cars looked like they had been flipped and had the tops cut off, obviously work of the jaws of life. The seats in the cars were crushed but before we pulled up past the wreck I saw a man in a sports jacket cross the road. But he was a chaplin. Then I saw firefighters holding up a white sheet, and I just wanted to burst out crying. Sure, I've seen wrecks before, but I've never actually known as I saw the damage that someone had died. This time I did and for some reason it bothered me. I just thought about what almost happened to us an hour before, and how the people killed might've been going home after a nice vacation. One of the vehicles in the accident was an RV. I dunno, like I said, I was just emotional, but stuff like that makes me second guess whether I want to be a doctor or not. I will see people die. That's a given. And I can cry about it later if I need to. But I just don't know how I'll hold myself together on the job. I guess that's just something I have to think about.

Anyway, I'm about to leave work. I'm sure I'll write a more uplifting entry later.